30. 12. 2010

Does this day means something to you? Hmm..for me, it's just a normal day. ahah! I'm just wondering, I have been posting a lot of things in this blog for 3 years since 2007. Should I continue posting stories?

Stories are up and down inside here. Some are happy, some are sad, some are angry , some are just my diary and some are normal event happening. However, all these posts means a lot to me. Those are the memories that I have through out my uni life. It belongs to me and only me. Or should I delete all the post and starts with new post from 01 Jan 2011 onwards?Or should I just stop posting? I just wanna have a peaceful life ba.. *wish to MIA* haha!

hmm...

So sweet of her

Got a surprise from a sista of mine=)

Let me show you some photos!

Photo 1 :

See this! so gold..and blink blink plus shinning shinning. Can you guess that it is from who? =D

Photo 2 : Still shining and blinking!

Photo 3 :Erm..let's open the wrapping.. 1 ! 2 ! 3!

Deng Deng Deng!!! Surprise!!

Owhhh~ cookies from her a.k.a Jun!

So sweet of her..The biscuits taste nice girl! Thanks girl! *hugs*

I'm so happy when I received this. I'm glad to know her and have her a member of the T-family! =D

Last week of 2010

6 more days to go.. 6 more days to a brand new year..6 more days to 01.01.2011. New year, new plan, new life, new experiences, new opportunities, some more?? a new person? new laughter, new image, new personality, new memories, new stories.

What have you wish for your new year? As for me, I wish that I can go to Perth* if things can go smoothly*, I wish to graduate next year, I wish to move to the next step, I wish to have a new story, life wouldn't be interesting without any stories or memories :)

Whatever happens in 2010, it will only be the past, the album, the past tense , the story, the ex, the memories. All those things gonna be storage the deepest part in the heart. Whatever happens means happens. There are no chances for you to re-do or re-act it again. Times won't turn back..Time will only moving forward. Time will bring you to another better island..don't you agree?

To my girl~yen, *if you read this* :

Just to let you know that whatever doesn't mean to be yours, let it go. You wouldn't know how good the things that is in front of you if you keep catching on something that doesn't mean to be yours. Give chances to others and yourself because you will never know how good others is.Never scared of losing him. Never feel scared to try out something new. Without him, you still friends, you still have your family. I believe our love to you doens't less than him.You can always get someone better than him in the future.Although we don't understand how you feel right now but you are still young ,girl. You just needs more album and colours. That's life my friends.

Sot post!

have you ever thought that yourself are mature enough to decide on a thing? have you ever fail in making a decision? have you ever break the promise that you have made to yourself? have you ever....NAH..I'M JUST CRAPPING!! NOTHING SO SERIOUS ABOUT IT =P I WON'T GIVE A CARE ON IT! SHOULD I LAUGH? HAHAHAHA

Merry Christmas

Version of mine :

Me wish you a merry christmas ,
Me wish you a merry christmas ,
Me wish you a merry christmas,
and a Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year peeps! =D

Something in the heart and mind

*NOTE: THIS IS A RANDOM THOUGHT DURING BORING-NESS, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE OR ANY EVENT *

If only you know that my heart is whispering " I miss you! "

Time flies and do you still care?

Do I ever told you that I'm fine ?

I might look fine all the time..but have you ever doubt of it?

or do I still stand a chance to lie?

Sometimes, I wish to be alone. Sitting at the corner and thought of hundred and thousand of thing..but you never know that, I do feel lonely.

Lonely just because sometimes I wish to share my thought but there is no one beside me.

No one is willing to be here and listen.

Me- I- same as her do hopes that there is a you that willing to stand at my side.

To care about me.

To talk to me.

To hugs me.

To hold me tight.

To let me have an arm to lay on and a shoulder to cry on whenever I am sad

or whenever I miss you.

I'm sorry to be such a ridiculous and immature person in your life.

I'm sorry to bother you.

I'm sorry for disturbing your life.

Will you forgive a person when he/she says "I'm sorry"?

Whenever I says I'm sorry, I meant it. But do you ever take it seriously?

Sometimes, I wish and hope that there is someone to talk to.

Just to know the condition.

Just to share my day with you.

Just to let you know that I'm thinking of you.

How about you?

But..I always scared to bother...

Are you missing the you as well?

Remember to be grateful and appreciate the you

because it is so blissful to have the you who is missing you

all the time.....

Have you ever doubt the feeling of us?

Do you know that the feeling of your heart is true

Never doubt the feeling of the you towards you

because it always will be heart broken if you doubt it..

Trust the you

Laying down on bed and sleep with the pet is the only thing that I can do

if I starts to miss

Songs are besides too!

Happening of last week

Grandpa's 73rd birthday! Mom and aunties prepared lots of food and of course it included my favorite crab! hiak hiak! =D *I'm lazy to type much so let the photos do the talking okie?*=D




First of all......

Food on the table. see my crabby??

Cousins and my sister.

Foods

Birthday cake for grandpa..nice right?? *Me like the old man*

Grandpa and the grandchildren. Smiless and Happy Birthday!! =D

Last saturday 18th Dec, outing with my dears : Jamie, Mei Yen, and Connie at x- Cruisine =)
J & J= Jean & Jamie
opps~ no mei yen and connie's photos..i'll post it next time la kay? xD

One step nearer

I can feel that it is a step nearer. Nearer to the pathway that I've decided and plan. Sometimes, things meant to be happen in that way and we can't say "no" to it but accept it and walk with whatever style that we like =)

That's our life and we have the right to decide on it.

Circumstances and problems might be Q-ing up in front of the way but never worry too much. Take it easy and learn from it. It will help you to grow more maturely. No matter how dark life feels, there is always something there to be grateful for. Trust that.

As for me, I'm done with stage 1 and moving to stage 2. Congratz to myself =) 4 more stages to go before it comes to the highest part. Need to work very hard for that. Nothing can stop me from moving forward and nothing is worth for me to stop down. *Aza aza!! Fighting!!*

Move forward always and always :)

Just a little update

Erm... a little update of me. Well, I'm still like usual..haven get fat till you can't recognize me yet..but soon I guess. haha *hopefully won't* hmm..relaxing a lot during the holidays. Everyone is out to work but I am alone at home relaxing and sleep.. Watch a lot of drama.. [ that is the best part about holidays] =D but will get bored too! how complicated it is right? haha

But sometimes will go to the office..do some paper works..but depends on my mood la..if I am too bored then i'll work..if i'm tired with works, i'll relax at home. Nice right?? haha..

Aiks..result will be released next wednesday..feel a bit of worry and nervous ehh..scared of fail =( Pray for me kay? I don't want to fail any unit..will die de ehhh...=x let me get into final year next sem okay?Please T_T

*time for bed*

byebye=)

A day out with friends

25/11/2010 ~ Done with exams and everyone need to release stress..and here we go. Brunei for sushi!! hehe^^ went to Brunei around 10am, drove my Angel.. Passengers included me, Jun, Boon, Eric, Andrew, Sze Zhong, and Lik. Reach KB around 11 and finish our lunch at 1pm. Then, we continue the journey down to Bandar.. At first, we thought of wanted to go to Supa Save at Bandar, but who knows, we seems like lost and ended up at Hua Ho. Hmm..one thing that I wanted to share.. Hua Ho's products are cheaper than Supa Save. So, peoples! let's go Hua Ho next time. =P

Bought some stuffs there and drove back to Miri at 5pm. After that, " turkey" thanks giving dinner at Amin's place. Wow~ my first time trying turkey.. erm..the taste is same as chicken.. no much different but yea..it's nice! =D

See the platess!

Share this with Suto!

Birthday Cake for Boon, Eric, Nicholas, Jun, Angel

Dinner for the night

The turkey *quack quack*

Things that I bought..Not much.but it is enough for me =D

Me and Jun

Macha with fruit Cocktail..hmm..not bad o..try this out again next time =p

A girl named : ~ Jun~

T Family

A girl named Jun is a friend of mine. Know her since two years ago during 2009 sem 1 soar training..erm, guess it is around November 2008. My first impression towards her is..she is such a talkative and noisy girl. Haha..or to say, she is very friendly until she can talk non-stop with you=D Besides, she can also laugh non-stop when there are something funny that attract her attention..haha What a cute and crazy girl~wahahaha

She loves sports a lot and everything with gold colour [hiak hiak!] $_$ . For those who want to give her present, make sure that it is gold in colour..and I sure she will super like it. =D She is a kind-hearted and helpful girl too! She will always be here advising me whenever I am down or upset. One special thing about Jun is she has lots and lots of friends. She can make friend with anyone easily I guess. =D

2 years time flies very fast and in a blink, she is leaving Miri to further her study in Aussie. Gonna miss her lots. Hope to see her soon! [pray for the *soon* of mine]

The old time of us Jun =)

The S & B hood xD

*Winks! Remember this plate girls? hehe^^*

Lastly, the song below are dedicated to both Jun and Elaine. Thanks for being a part of my life girls~ Without you guys, my life will not be such colourful =) sista forever! *hugggssssss*

有时候

有时候，总是在等待。。等待着一些不会发生的事。等待着一些希望。每次都告诉自己，这些都在浪费些时间，可是自己总是很不听话，还是选择等待。为什么呢？ 很不明白。

有时候，总是在想。。想着那个根本都不会发生的事。。想着那个没感情的感觉。。每次都跟自己说，别想了！ 可是自己还是在想。。想着想着，眼泪也会掉下来。为什么呢？ 也是不明白。

有时候，总是在思念。。思念着那个很近可是感觉离我很远的人。思念只会让一个人觉得很伤心。可是我还是在思念着。。感觉很笨。。就是不知道为什么。 为什么呢？ 不明白。

有时候，总是在希望自己没感觉没感情。。这样就不会痛。。这样就不用顾虑。。自己就永远不会知道什么是爱与被爱。。可是我还是有感觉，有感情。 为什么呢? 很不明白。

有时候，总是在希望没烦恼。。如果没烦恼， 世界就变的开心很多。。问题就没那么难解决。。对吗？ 可是好像不是这样。。反而很多事情都很难解决。 为什么呢？ 还是不明白。

有时候，总是希望可以开心的笑。。因为每天的假笑别人看了很讨人厌。。可是自己还是很固执。。每天都要带这面具。为什么呢？不明白呀！ 

哪些”有时候“ 真的让我觉的很累很累。。想放弃，想休息，想哭， 可是就是不能。

Random : confused [part 1]

Today, 23/11/ 2010..8:11pm, it's the second day of my holidays. Hmm..let's see what did I do today? Wake up at 7am..do some houseworks till noon and then drama. Oh well, I don't know whether I am old now or what..I can't watch drama continuousness 3 episodes for non-stop. Tatata.. =( Ishh..so, I sleep for the whole afternoon..piggy liao right? =p

Hmm..and ended up in front of my laptop updating my little space. And now I have a random thought of this.. well, don't know why, i started to feel that my world seems so quite..aiks..is it because of my problem or others? but I think it is my problem.. got worm inside my body (elaine, 2010) . haha..but seriously la..i'm kinda lazy nowadays..don't feel like going out and I wish I can just stay at home for 24/7. Friends date me for 5 times, i rejected them 4 1/2 times.. why ar? since when I become like this? zai nv betul!! >.<" and I can feel that i'm turning to the old old me..

Well, there are both good and bad side..the good side is- I can rest and relax more!!! =D and the negative side - I started to think a lot and simply make an assumption for every thought of mine. How terrible it is..

I am such a failure.. I can't do well in everything.. whatever I did, it will end up with something that is worst.. sucks outcome maybe? I wonder why? Is it because of my attitude?or my personality? my style? T__T tell me if anyone of you know why..Others might say that I am not friendly, I am not generous, I am small gas bla bla bla..whatever negative and bad comments, but do they really know what is the reason behind those evil face? Haihhh...

I really hope for a changes in life.. I am sick of all the problems and thought.. I am confused and tired.. I feel like wanna leave this place soon..[praying for the *soon*] ... at least I can have new experiences, new life although I know that there will be new problem too! That's life..life will not be complete without problems..right? T_T

Okay la..crap enough lerr..need rest..see ya peeps!

Perhaps, you can get some secrets here

Tagged by Yun to answer those questions below.. Be cause she say I am too free during holidays.. =D

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Ribena

2. Last phone call: Dad

3. Last text message: Kim

4. Last song you listened to: Not listening to any songs

5. Last time you cried: Erm.. don't know! aiya..why need to remember the date? Now happy jiu hao la..=D

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: Yes ? No? Twice in a day or what?

7. Been cheated: of course =x but I guess there is always a reason behind a cheat. It's is either for the sake of themselves or for the one kena cheated.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No. there is no reason to be regretted =)

9. Lost someone special: Yes.. sad case ='(

10. been depressed: maybe lately eh?

11. been drunk and threw up: No.. never get drunk before.. guai guai =D

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Blue

13. Purple

14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friends: Yea.. it is so nice to know them. =D

16. Fallen out of love: LOL

17. Laughed until you cried: don't know ..forget =p

18. Met someone who changed you: Yup. He really thought me a lot of things. Thanks darling!

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yeap! I'm glad to have them in my life =)

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yea.. alot I think. sien de o =x

21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Facebook friend's lists? blog friend's list? =)

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: It is not a good thing to add and approve a stranger..haha

23. How many kids do you want?: I appreciate whatever is given by God. Life is so wonderful and precious.

24. Do you have any pets: Moo moo and bear bear counted?hehe

25. Do you want to change your name: Why do I need to change? My name is special enough for me =D

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Erm.. this year birthday is on Mother's Day.. and you guys know la..there is always a dinner with family at Lutong cafe. haha..received lots of angpao from relatives $_$ haha..and then one week later, celebrate it with friends and dear at siamese! owh! my fish and chips! arrggg..not so nice la the food..hmm..but still okay okay la..=p

27. What time did you wake up today: 7am?

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watch drama la..if not what else ler?

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: PERTH!! GRADUATION!!

30. Last time you saw your Mother: one hour ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My life? I don't think there is a need of changes. Perhaps,maybe I would like to change my attitude I guess.I want to be a better girl! So that I can know how to love and care others without hurting and letting them down.

32. What are you listening to right now: Not listening to anything also la.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes! my classmate

34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: Result! =.="

35. Most visited webpage: fb, email and blog

36. What’s your real name: Why do you need to know? haha..close friends of mine should know de la..=p

37. Nicknames: jean, nini, jie jie

40. Male or female? : Female

41. Elementary? : SRK Jalan Bintang

42. Middle School: SMK Saint Columba

43. High school/college: Curtin University of Technology/ Curtin University

44. Hair colour: Black

45. Long or short: Long.. plan to get short hair..but but..scared later will look funny la..wahahahah

46. Height: 159cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone? : yea =(

48: What do you like about yourself: Don't know! Hmm..what do you like about me then? haha

49. Piercings: yeap!

50. Tattoos: no..good girl okay? haha

51. Righty or lefty: right

52. First surgery: yeap..2 years ago =(

53. First piercing: Erm.. primary school

54. First best friend: Alice and fung eh..haha..kinda forget who is the first liao..

55. First sport you joined: I couldn't remember

56. First vacation: When I was still a little kid

58. First pair of trainers: Huh? explanation of this please! @@

59. Thinking something simpler than 1+1 = 2: sleep and eat

60. Drinking now? : LOL..drink plain water consider?

62. Listening to: Nothing again

63. Waiting for: something

64. Want kids?: of course! kids are just too cuteeeeee! hehe^^

65. Get married?: yea..if the person is worth for..why not? haha..love is always beautiful.

66. Career: Business WHICH IS BETTER?: Career lor..$$ money money!

67. Lips or eyes: both lor

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs! *Hugs multiple when you give them away.*

69. Shorter or taller: shorter among siblings

70. Older or younger: older among siblings.. da jie jie

71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both not nice =(

73. Sensitive or loud: Both! super sensitive and super loud.

74. Hook-up or relationship: LOL

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: always a trouble maker.. sorry friends for always mafan-ing you guys =(

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: NOO!

77. Drank hard liquor: Nope! guai guai girl!

78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yeap.. few times already

79. Sex on first date: what??? @@

80. Broken someone’s heart: Haihh..it is an always.. I am just not mature enough =(

82. Been arrested: Been arrested to someone's heart consider? hahahah..jk jk la..kai wan xiao!

83. Turned someone down: Yes =(

84. Cried when someone died: Yes..Miss grandma =(

85. Fallen for a friend?: Errrr..errr...huh?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: yes

87. Miracles: Yes. Believe that impossible will become possible

88. Love at first sight: Nope

89. Heaven: yes!

90. Santa Claus: yes! can I ask for a christmas present? I wanna pass all the units this sem..and that is the only present that I want for christmas. =x

91. Kiss on the first date: Yes! haha..sweet sweet love

92. Angels: Yes! see my blog description! haha

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/ boyfriend at a time: weiiii!!! loyalty is very important okay? =x

95. Did you sing today: yes

96. Ever cheated on somebody relationship?: people cheat me got lor.. but it's okay.. i will forgive you because your lies makes me grow up to be tough!

97. If you could go back in time, how far would go: Don't want can? because there is no turning back in life.. Once it is happens, it really happens already.. and it will only be a pass and history to us.. why don't look forward then? there will be a lot of surprise wanting for you in the future =)

98. If you could pick a day from last year, what would it be: last year? Hmm..that day..=)

99. Are you afraid of falling in love: Erm..a bit eh? Because I don't have confident in myself =( I still need to learn and grow up more..

100. Posting this as 100 truths: Change the tittle la can? hehe^^

我什么都不怕，我不怕分手，就怕你离我而去

Erm..I feel like want to post this, so I post it lor...

如果有一天分手，我们不能在一起了，

你还会不会想我，你还会不会又找我的冲动，

分手前我们说过，分手后你还要对我那么好，

你还记得吗？

我从来就不怕分手，我怕的只是你离我而去，

我怕的是你一走了，就永远也不再回头了，

我怕的是我们的距离，从此变得好远好远，

分手只能说明我们两个人并不适合在一起，

但却不能证明我对你付出的真心都是假的，

让你走，只是想把最美丽的我留在你的心中...

爱情本来就不能够为彼此排除万难，

因为爱情才是一切万难的来源,

没有爱情，也就无需面对这些问题，

离开，有时候只是一种无奈的选择，

不让你走，只是因为我真的舍不得，

但我知道，若是你要走我绝对留不住你...

亲爱的，答应我，

如果有一天我们真的分手，请你别走远，

我不会阻碍着你去寻找你要的幸福，

但我真的不希望我们从此成为了陌生人，

你可以不关心我，但请让我继续关心你，

你可以不要爱我，但你不能阻止我爱你，

你可以说我骂我，但请别当我是陌生人...

既然在一起了，就不要随便说出那两个字，

既然你选择我，就不要在想起其他的人了，

既然我爱上你，我就不会那么轻易放下你，

既然要谈恋爱，就谈一场不会分手的恋爱，

就算这不真实，至少我们都有努力地爱过...

回不到从前，我还想有未来，

去不到未来，只少还有现在,

我不知道我们能不能一起走到未来，

但我不希望在未来时，你只是一个过去，

不不知道现在可以维持多久，

但我知道现在的我，很爱你...♥♥♥

right..don't know why I wanna post..maybe too stress liao..or just a sharing maybe? ;) have fun reading! =p