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Showing posts with label only one. Show all posts

Saturday, April 9, 2011

you won't understand =l

Friend has been saying me stupid and idiot. Oh yea..i agree with that. I'm kinda stupid tho. I don't whether i still love him or not. I have actually trying to give up but suddenly..his appearing . You can always say that i'm stupid. I really really stupid tho..but that's me :l arrr..if you don't love me anymore, just let me go la..please dun find me again. It should stop. But if u really love me, you won't let go me at the very first point. Why don't u go and find someone that is better than me? And i know u will :l

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

It's true

I think...i need to admit it..that..I actually miss a little of you
I don't know whether it is right or wrong..trying very hard to force myself..to forget a someone like you..I feel that I started to hate you? Ok..fine...I should say I force myself to hate you..I hate because I hope that I can forget you as soon as possible..LOL.. that's not me at all..=x

The more I hate you...the more I wanted to forget you..the more my heart told me that I actually still care a someone that will never care and miss me forever again..probably, you started to forget about me..forget every single thing of me..forget a someone like me..stubborn and stupid..LOL..

Haihh..life move on..whatever meant to be..let it be then =x

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

It is my turn =)

Life are not as simple as we think it is.Really. That is what I think of. It is full with obstacles. Don't you agree? Oh well, there is nothing much I can do..life and times will keep on going and pass by.

Peoples, I am just a girl. Who stay somewhere around the corner of the earth. Around this planet. I have been like others, think and wonder a lot, should it be like this? should it be like this? is it correct or wrong to be in this way? Sometimes, I really can't get the answer as well. No matter how hard I am working on it. No matter how.. I always feel regret after I did it.. =(

I am not that stubborn anyways, I understand what is happening to me, I know what is going on. Peoples always says that, let the "time do the judgment". But time really can prove everything huh? Anyways, as for me, I kinda believe in this sentence..let the time tell us what should we do and what is the best option for us. Put our hand together..No matter in what problems that we faced. Believe in God =) Always pray and He will guide you.

I don't know how others think about me..some might says that I am selfish? I am easily get jealous? I am so called "small-gas"? but Hey! peoples! If you don't know me, please don't use your brain and mouth to judge me. Please?! I am just who I am. I am as normal as that. Simple as that.
Me, same as others, will get tired also. Tired till where I need a shoulder for me to cry. Cry as much as I want..but..there is something in between..that makes it so complicated. One thing I wanna mention at here is, I cry not because I am not mature..not because I am childish..not because I don't know how to think. I cry because it is really pain from the deep of my heart. I am tired now but I never wanna give up. I will only give up if I really really feel that I can't do it anymore. I don't want to force myself. It will just create another pain in my heart. Let me be what I wanna be okay? Let me live in the dream. Let me live in the fairytale. I will get out from it when I am awake. I don't know why am I like this.Seriously..I don't understand.. Being hurting myself a lot. "Hey,girl! ..don't hurt your self anymore. No one will pity you". How silly it is right? =(

Seriously, I wanna leave this place..going to a place that no one know me. Let everything starts from the beginning.Begins with zero..like the day I was born on the earth..can I?


p/s: prayer : *Dear Father in Heaven, I am so not in any direction. I am so weak. I am so helpless. Please helps me with direction and the confidence. Help me to see the view clearly. Help me to go through all the things. Father, Please bless and help the one that I care much. Give him faith and confidence.Help him in anything that he need. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen. =)*