Burden-ness

Sometimes..I'm just too tired to carry all these things on my shoulder. The so called "burden-ness". It's just too heavy for me. I might can't breath anytime, any moment as you know. I wish that I could just put all these down at the hill.. and I'm lying freely on the top of the hill, on the clean and white sand on the beach. I want to be as light as a wind enjoying every scenery that I wanted to see.

Well, I'm fine..I'm actually ok :) Smile!

我想说。。

其实，我想说...我有很多东西想说。很想大大声的说出来...

我想说。。

我可不可以：

-不要懒惰

- 放假

- 回家

- 去旅行

- 吃喝玩乐

- 一直吃都不会胖

- 要很多很多的衣服和包包

- 毕业

- 把成绩考好

- 赚很多很多的钱

- 要瘦下来

- 只要快乐，不要烦恼

- 睡觉

- 不要读书也能考好成绩

我的天啊~！我们人类就是这样。。永远都不自足！ 明明我都有了啊。。可是就觉得不够~ :s

Dilemma 200

Sometimes you may find yourself in a dilemma where you are ''damned if you do, and damned if you don't.'' You cannot solve such dilemmas by choosing a side because both paths lead to suffering. The only way out is to transform your perspective to a place where the dilemma no longer exists. This is possible.

Well, I have been thinking. Is it worth much? How should the road and path should be? I'm in don't know right or wrong. I ever think that, it seems like kinda waste. I wasted a lot. Oh well, I should said..everyone has a different perceptions towards a dilemma..Don't you think so? Please, I hope that it will be in the way it should be.. I don't ask for more.. Seriously *_*

P/s: You might not understand, so yea.. just took as I'm bluffing alright? It's just my own problem. LOL.. fine, i don't even understand what am I saying :X

我很想哭

为什么这样噢？ 你们想哭，我更想哭啦。 为什么那么喜欢叫我帮你们做assignment啊？？ 我自己的都做不完了啦！我最讨厌就是帮人家做assignment。想推可是你们又不爽我。推了，又生我的气。。什么跟什么啦？？？ 怎么办？？ 我真的不想要帮你们做。好姐妹的话，就别逼我啦..T___T 放过我吧！！！

Week 6

Week 6 is done for me. The week is done with a glance. Yea.. right! so it's another 8 more weeks to go. I can't wait to go home. I feel like wanted to go home so badly right after exam. Let's just hope that my exam can finish as soon as possible.

I always see the half cup of water as half full. Same goes to the day home.. I wouldn't say it's still a long way to go.. I would say that it's only 2 months left.. 2 months is fast..like now.. I have been here for 2 months..how should I enjoy the rest of my 2 months? :)

我好想家，想我的妈咪!

不知不觉，来了这陌生的地方也有一个月多了吧！不知怎么了，我就是很想家，很想我的妈咪啦！不关这地方有多好，有多美，有多大，可是没有家人和妈咪，一点也不好玩！（张不大的孩子）

我多么希望可以快点读完，带着四方帽，快点回家去吧！！！

以前，还没出来读书时，几希望可以快点出去，现在后悔了吧你静妮！真的，有点后悔了啦！！可是我又不会希望时间到回，只希望时间快点过，因为我想把书快快读完，让我的老母大人骄傲！！

这就是我漂亮的妈咪！咪，快点来带我回家去吧！

这里有个笑话;

每次我都很喜欢跟妈咪讲；“咪，我觉得我比你漂亮很多啦！” 然后妈咪就说; " 明明就是我比你漂亮啊！要不然你会那么漂亮？？死要脸！一定是我有这么美，那么你才会漂亮啊！“ （哈哈哈哈！无聊的母女！）

如果妈咪看到这个的话，肯定会笑翻天！

好吧，为了能带着四方帽回家， 本小姐我就赶紧勤劳的去做功课去呗！

再见咯！！

30. 12. 2010

Does this day means something to you? Hmm..for me, it's just a normal day. ahah! I'm just wondering, I have been posting a lot of things in this blog for 3 years since 2007. Should I continue posting stories?

Stories are up and down inside here. Some are happy, some are sad, some are angry , some are just my diary and some are normal event happening. However, all these posts means a lot to me. Those are the memories that I have through out my uni life. It belongs to me and only me. Or should I delete all the post and starts with new post from 01 Jan 2011 onwards?Or should I just stop posting? I just wanna have a peaceful life ba.. *wish to MIA* haha!

hmm...

Something in the heart and mind

*NOTE: THIS IS A RANDOM THOUGHT DURING BORING-NESS, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE OR ANY EVENT *

If only you know that my heart is whispering " I miss you! "

Time flies and do you still care?

Do I ever told you that I'm fine ?

I might look fine all the time..but have you ever doubt of it?

or do I still stand a chance to lie?

Sometimes, I wish to be alone. Sitting at the corner and thought of hundred and thousand of thing..but you never know that, I do feel lonely.

Lonely just because sometimes I wish to share my thought but there is no one beside me.

No one is willing to be here and listen.

Me- I- same as her do hopes that there is a you that willing to stand at my side.

To care about me.

To talk to me.

To hugs me.

To hold me tight.

To let me have an arm to lay on and a shoulder to cry on whenever I am sad

or whenever I miss you.

I'm sorry to be such a ridiculous and immature person in your life.

I'm sorry to bother you.

I'm sorry for disturbing your life.

Will you forgive a person when he/she says "I'm sorry"?

Whenever I says I'm sorry, I meant it. But do you ever take it seriously?

Sometimes, I wish and hope that there is someone to talk to.

Just to know the condition.

Just to share my day with you.

Just to let you know that I'm thinking of you.

How about you?

But..I always scared to bother...

Are you missing the you as well?

Remember to be grateful and appreciate the you

because it is so blissful to have the you who is missing you

all the time.....

Have you ever doubt the feeling of us?

Do you know that the feeling of your heart is true

Never doubt the feeling of the you towards you

because it always will be heart broken if you doubt it..

Trust the you

Laying down on bed and sleep with the pet is the only thing that I can do

if I starts to miss

Songs are besides too!

One step nearer

I can feel that it is a step nearer. Nearer to the pathway that I've decided and plan. Sometimes, things meant to be happen in that way and we can't say "no" to it but accept it and walk with whatever style that we like =)

That's our life and we have the right to decide on it.

Circumstances and problems might be Q-ing up in front of the way but never worry too much. Take it easy and learn from it. It will help you to grow more maturely. No matter how dark life feels, there is always something there to be grateful for. Trust that.

As for me, I'm done with stage 1 and moving to stage 2. Congratz to myself =) 4 more stages to go before it comes to the highest part. Need to work very hard for that. Nothing can stop me from moving forward and nothing is worth for me to stop down. *Aza aza!! Fighting!!*

Move forward always and always :)

Swing-ing

Oh well..from yesterday stupid and idiot post, I know that I shouldn't be like that anymore.. Someone just scold me after reading my post..saying that I shouldn't be like that..There are really a lot of people who cares about me..then after blogging, I sleep..it seems like I haven been sleeping for few days already..LOL..blame the ASSIGNMENTS kay?

Doink~ I am much more better and fine right now..no worries la..I am a tough girl..don't you think so?

So, ....... itu saja!

I am still and old me...haha

See ya peoples!

Good luck and +u in final=)

I am not emo

Please don't label me as Emo!!

I am not emo at all..

Hate and dislike..

When people say and thought that I am emo..

Because you don't know how happy I am..

I just wanna live peacefully with my own life..

Living in my own way..

With the people that I want..

In the pattern and stay that I like, love and comfortable with..

No one has the right to comment and say anything..

Which makes a lot of noise..

Which cause un - peaceful in my life..

Your noisiness makes me can't stay quietly..

It will only cause me to get angry and pissed off..

Therefore, people.. please keep quiet..

Stand a side and see nothing..

No one has the right to rate the worthiness..

No one has the right to give any grade on it..

Because no one can understand the worthiness of it to me..

Sometimes, there are something in my mind that is unexplainable..

And I can't understand at all..

And there is no solutions for it..

That's why sometimes there are such weird post..

But, that doesn't means anything..

Seriously....

Because you guys don't understand me well..

It is just a random thought of mine...

Like this post...

It is very very random....

Don't judge me so fast if you don't understand me..

Beware of the mouth..

It is a knife..

As it always hurt others a lot..

Say "Hi" to sunshine and smile to the sun..

Do it everyday..

This is our responsibility...

To make ourself happy..

Don't you think so?

Since nothing is your business..

So, what for care so much about it..?

You are wasting the time only...

Trust me..

Believe me..

That's it...

Love Me♥

Cares Me♥

Worried Me♥

Understand Me♥

Thanks for that♥

=)

I am here

Here I am again..Erm..back from work..tired sei and I am lazy to do my tutorials and pre-reading =( So, in the end..I am here..at my little space..I wanted to say something..ermm...i feel very weird..weird because of...arrrrggg...ermmm....haih...don't know how to say..there are too many things in my mind..suan liao la..no one will understand and care what is going on gua...bah bah bah..take that I am just nagging at here....ishhh...what I am trying to type ar? LOL..i guess i better stop typing to prevent any misunderstanding and kepo-ing from others..

LOL...saying about kepo-ing , i will get pissed off..one thing la peoples, it is not your problems, so better don't kepo and ask so many questions kay? what so interesting about that?? =.=

=s =( ='(

Once again I am wondering.

Oh well, let me put the words at the first place. This is my blog. You are welcome to read but if you think that I say something that offense you and you feel bad, you can just leave my blog.kays? and I won't say sorry to anyone. =)

As the title of the post, once again I am wondering. I wonder how come things turn out this way? At first I thought that it will be fine and things will go well. But..it seems like going the other way round. Things turn very bad to everyone =( Why? I also don't know. I don't have any ideas and comments on the things that happens. But hey, we shouldn't like this don't you think so? LOL..come on la people. Let's make things turn into good one..shall we? does it worth? x( Hmm..I am a bit of missed those old times. How I wish if time can go back to past? haha..*I know it is impossible la people..just dreaming* xD

One thing about human, we really need communication. Between couple, between friends. We really need a talk sometimes. Hinting is not a right way to do thing. Hinting will only cause misunderstanding between peoples. Therefore my dear friends, if there is something that in your heart and make you feel uncomfortable, just say it out and let the others know..it is as simple as that. Just say out whatever you want to say rather than keep it in your heart and you suffer alone. It worth nothing. Understand? I am not angry. Just saying my own opinions. It is still up to you if you want to keep it in your heart.

Friends are peoples that will help you if you are in need. As for myself, I am glad and happy that I got a lot of friends around me. I appreciate whatever they had done for me. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. =) *Thanks friends* No other words to use and express the feeling..but only Thanks =) without you guys, I am nothing and I won't be able to sit here=) Hehe

XoXo

Future

Owh Owh Owh..I can see the color. The very bright color , that shine on me. Whenever I think of it, I feel so happy..I can't wait for it..wait me wait me kays?? My life isn't that bad I guess. At least I see a little hope in it. I shall have a better and more colorful life. No matter how tough the road gonna be..how many obstacles it will be..and whether I am going to go through it alone or not..I believe I can do it.. I can do even better than anyone else. I don't need anyone=) I will scarify everything to get and achieve it. That is what I promise to myself. Nothing is more important than that for me. I can't break the promise that I had made towards myself. Work hard little girl! =)

I don't care how others think because they don't think for me. I don't mind how others judge me because it is none of their business. That's what I want. =)

x0x0

在这宇宙我是独一无二，没人能取代。或许你们觉得我很自大，不是最好的，可是没关系，我不在乎。相信自己就好了。一觉醒来，明天的我是充满希望的。
未来的自己，不管遇到任何挫折任何难关都会很勇敢，不会放弃，不会伤心，不会觉得疲倦，因为我想留着最好的为来给自己=）加油！我一定会开心的跑到终点。未来的你会懂我的疯狂=）