路客的日子之火山爆发

今天是一个非常不开心,非常生气的一天。 我和那个八婆。。haihh她真的惹毛了本小姐。 你觉得我是lulu 吗? 那么好欺负啊?!平时你都对我脸臭臭。。白眼我。明天你放假了,要我帮你做东西。。可是那个态度简直是超级没礼貌 :O
等则瞧。。我一定不会帮你做。 管老板骂不骂。
Haihh. .在这里被人家欺负真可怜。真想丢下一切。。回家去。 因为只有家人尤其是妈妈。。会听听我们诉苦。 别人。。都不知是真心还是假意。

过客的日子

我一直都找不到任何一个字来形容我在这里的生活。可是最近我的一个朋友却帮我找到答案了。 对! 就是过客! 我在这里就是一名过客!路过人家的家吧了。路过了,是时候回家了。
为什么是过客? 因为我的心没办法安定的在这里。尤其是当他不在身边的时候,我一直都想逃走, 可是过候却被安了下来。
因为有他的陪伴,我忍了。真的很想他在。。
可是最近一些事情,我发觉到我在这里的culture gap越来越严重了。因该说重来没好过?
原谅我的自私,这里的人事物。。让我无法接受。。也接受不来。。haihhh
有时候我一个人安静的时候,就在想。。当初这个路是我选的。。到底是对还是错。。想着想着。。就很想家。眼睛就会不停的落泪。最近真的很对不起我的眼睛。。让它那么痛。
我到底在等什么?忍什么?一切到最候, 会是怎样的结局呢。。

如果时间倒流

如果时间可以回到那天, 我还会坚持我的决定,坚持着你吗?
如果说能再给我选多一次, 相信我还会选择着个路吗?
其实你真的很好。我想我应该再也找不到任何人像你对我那么好。 如果我现在选择放弃,那么我想我可能会後诲。我只能说,timing不对吗?
我真的很烦恼!为什么每次面对这种事情的时候,感觉是我一个人在烦呢?感觉就是我一个人在迁就。可是每当我迁就的时候,老实说,你总是没让我依靠。
这次可不可以换你来安排, 让我觉得一次, 你是我要靠着的件旁!

Melt~

Found this! :) :) :)

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By duly of the Pang Xin Bin's special and unique busty requirements, this is a great honour to announce that

Jeannie Lau

As the solely recognised girl that admitted to be his full time girlfriend and queen,

which truely listen, care and concern,
which frequently pop up in his mind and dream,
which passionately involved unlimited amount of love,
which continously kissing non-stop for hours in the late night,
which comfortably hugging together to share and feel the warm of intimacy,
which proudly holding hands in the public and to family and friends as public display of affection, and
which extremely missing the sweet, valuable, memorable and enjoyable moment together, caressing your soft chubby hands and face,

Finally, the authentically expressed statement from the heart entitled,

I Love You

Is being awarded without any doubts and impurities.

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Melted! I should have admit that he might not be good in talking, but he is super b good in writing!

Back Home

I'm back to home for holidays. Like what peoples always said: HOME SWEET HOME! <3 p="">
Yes, i will be home for about 5 days 4 nights. Kinda short trip :'( Nevermind, November gonna be a long holidays for me!

Ok, why am I home? Well, I kinda miss home. I haven be back for 4 months. There are two main reasons why am I back:

1. To celebrate mooncake festival ( I kinda miss celebrating festival with all the families, miss the home cook foods too)

2. To look for a house. (Yeah! Finally)
- Went out almost whole afternoon just to look around houses in Miri. And I've decided which one to buy.
-Filling super duper excited! Hopefully my loan can approve and I'm gonna owned my first house. This house has 5 rooms up and down. I plan to leave a room for myself. I'm gonna decorate the room with all my favorite stuffs :)))))
- Will, let us the loan approve first ok? hahha *kinda worry* *pray hard!*

Weddings :)

Hehe looking at the topic! Right, I'm not saying myself. It's not the time yet.. hehe.. Well, lately quite a lot of couples are getting married. Blessed them with happiness. Hmm, what comes to my mind today is, how much does it cost when you're getting married? How can two different background and culture peoples getting together? I always think that it is amazing when 2 different people are actually getting married.
And..how come people can get married so easily?

Let us don't talk about money, we talk about culture. How can different culture and background people getting married? Ain't conflict happens? Sometimes when I was sharing my culture married details with my boyfriend's mom, she was like saying.. huh..our place here people don't practice it that way. When talking about how much money does they give..she was like =.='' our culture is not like that.

Eventually, it makes me don't feel like getting married with the boyfriend a.k.a the son already. We are from different culture and background. I can't imagine when we are about to get married, sure there will be conflict happens, don't know who's parent should we please.. huhu.. and honestly saying, I feel very comfortable with our relationship style like now; freedom and happiness. Can it continue to be the way we are right now...till the end? :) *big smile**

ok, as I promise from last post, tata...photo!

**sorry peoples, connection is bad again. next round kays?

see ya :)

Time flies

Hello peeps! I'm here again. I've been neglecting this bloggie of mine for so long  (due to no internet :x) and yes, I am here to update a little since the boyfriend is still not home yet.

Well, first thing that I would like to say is..TIME FLIES! yes indeed it is! I've been staying in this place called SANDAKAN (my boyfriend's hometown) for the past 1 year and 35 days.

I would say this 1 year plus is a blessed year for me. I have a super b good boyfriend with, the very nice aunty and uncle ( the boyfriend's parent).It's already half a year I'm staying here with them. It is really not easy to stay and live with someone who is totally stanger at the begining and you start to feel like family later. Honesty saying, they have been very taking care of me; especially the aunty. She is just like another mother to me. She do talk a lot like my mom too! hehe :p

This period of time, things happen on and off. We're busy with our works almost everyday. Sometimes we do argue and quarrel like what other couple does.But he treat me like I'm the only one. I know the boyfriend is working very hard, just for the sake of our future. So, I'm blessed to have him in this 1 year and 9 months together.

While when you're in the stage of working life and you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, I'm sure you will be in the midst of getting a house. Do you? Yes, I am. We work very hard, to save the earnings just for our HOME!
We have been surveying house around Sandakan, and I would say it is expensive. Well, I still haven decide where should I settle down and that's why I stop looking for house here plus the boyfriend is quite. But I really wish to have a dream house with the boyfriend. A house that belongs totally to us and we can have our dreams inside! :)

Ok, let me just share with you our latest photo and I shall move to bed soon. *and yea,the boyfriend is not back yet*

*sorry guys, the line is so bad tonight! I shall update it during my next blog k* see ya soon and good night!

Random updates

Hello, i was wondering, anyone still reading blogspot? I've not been reading and updating for a very long time. It's about a year ago since my last post. And yes, I'm back after one year!

I'll just put an update here. Guess where am I now? I'm now in Sandakan! North part of Sabah? Correct me if I'm wrong. (: Well, why Sandakan??! Seriously, I've no idea. I don't know why I'm here. Ok, for the sake of work I'm here. I'm now working with HSBC Bank Berhad; but yea..Sandakan branch.

In a glance, I'm here for 10 months already. Can't imagine right? Time really pass so so sooooo fast until you don't realize. It's June in another two days. June, middle of the year!

Well, if you ask me life in Sandakan, I would said there is good thing and also bad. It's on and off. Sometimes happy and sometimes I'm so damn emotional. And sometimes I really miss home. I wish to go back so badly. Or i shouldn't go back.. because yea, you know that. Or maybe I should go somewhere else again. I don't know how long will I be staying here. 2 years? 3 years? 5 years? 10 years? No! It won't be that long until 10 years.

I don't even have a close friend or home at here. I feel so damn boring at here. And I'm feeling like I'm no one here. I'm no one to everyone here :(

 Sometimes, I'm thinking again and again. It is a right decision to come over? I've since give up a lot of things to come here. I give up my family, my friends, my very veryyyy comfort zone. I have my everything in comfort zone. But I don't have one thing ; a person's heart.

Two heart; if really want to be together, there is always someone sacrifice and someone gain. So which one is you?

I'll give myself a maximum 5 years..if I really can do it; if really there is no changes in between.

烦恼

我。。开始觉得生活，赚钱，工作。。真的没想像那么简单！ 感觉上， 我好像很笨！ 我太单纯了！ 我开始觉得很压力。。工作上的压力。 我的天啊！ 如果我做不到，那怎么办？？有得换工了？？！干嘛我觉得我好像不能把一分工作好这样？？我觉得自己好像真的没实力！:( 开始觉得自己很废！什么都做不好！很伤心！ 做不好那怎么办？？ 我的目标很简单！ 我很清楚我的目标。。可是它好像离我很远！ 我只是想赚点钱，存点钱！很难吗？？ Haihhh! 烦啊！！累啊！:'(

No matter how difficult the road not taken is..

No matter how many obstacles in front of the unseen path..

No matter how many tears walk through the direction..

No matter how complicated the way is..

No matter how many sad devil knocking your door..

No matter how lonely you're when walking in the darkness

No matter how scary the scenes are..

No matter how many temptation in the junction of a straight road..

I believe that there's rainbows always after the rain:) The sunny day is always after the rainy day!

Burden-ness

Sometimes..I'm just too tired to carry all these things on my shoulder. The so called "burden-ness". It's just too heavy for me. I might can't breath anytime, any moment as you know. I wish that I could just put all these down at the hill.. and I'm lying freely on the top of the hill, on the clean and white sand on the beach. I want to be as light as a wind enjoying every scenery that I wanted to see.

Well, I'm fine..I'm actually ok :) Smile!

手牵手

我并没有被任何人影响到。 我还是我， 我还是那么的爱你。 不管别人怎样讲，怎样看不起都好。。我只是相信我自己的选择，我相信你！ 没有人知道以后会怎样，前方会有什么东西在捣乱，只要你是爱我的，那就够了=)

不管别人觉得我这样做值不值得， 只要我觉得你是值得，那就够了！

其实很简单，我要的只是一棵真心。。只要你能真心的爱我。。那就真的够了。那，我什么也不怕了。

答应我，只要你还爱我，就不要随便的推开我，不要随便的说想放手。

有多少个情侣能一直手牵手的走下去？我希望。。你能坚持一直陪我走下去。只要我们坚持，信任，累了。。互相陪伴扶持，我相信我们也能:)

我一直都觉得自己很幸福，因为我知道，有一个人，虽然不经常见面，陪我，但是心里却一直想着我。

喜欢你是不可改变的，爱你是我想做的:)

他又再一次的让我笑，让我开心

title: 夢中的邂逅

Xxxxxx says

雖然我們分隔兩地 不能與對方相伴 但我們依然很期待與對方在夢中邂逅

慶幸的我們有各自的夢境 包含不同的情景,情節,情感 和我們最渴望的情深的一吻

也許種種的不同經理,探索,困難與挑戰 雖然並非事實而是幻象

但成為我們彼此相處,分享,了解與學習 喜怒哀樂 的獨特方式

因此事後我們一起分享那些不同的回憶 彼此更加珍惜對方 就是那麼的甜蜜和貼心

最後把那些回憶永遠藏在心理 再說一聲 我愛你 很想你 有你的陪伴是那麼的幸福! 你願意嗎?

♥

Another funny yet it's able to make me laugh !! resolution of the year.. hahahah! xD

新年，他的废话多多？嘻嘻！

Xin Bin Pang says
新的一年 我有很多的願望 都是包括生活, 愛情, 工作, 家庭等等 期望在新的一年有新的開始和發展 愛情方面 當然是為了你一個人而為目標 我一樣的希望我們在這一年和以後會更幸福 雖然我們不再對方的身邊 然而你已經成為我心目中的一部分 我們彼此陪伴著對方 一次的跨越一切的障礙 努力為我們的幸福和未來一次向前衝

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你願意嗎??

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如今 我們同樣的期待著下一次的見面 希望少數的見面機不會沖淡我們之間的感覺 反而我們會更加的珍惜
把和對方相處的短短一刻 特別是和你深深的一吻 好好的珍惜和記住


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新的一年，很多人都会有很多新的愿望，我和你和他也不例外。 在还没新年之前，我老早就叫他想了，然后在1/1/2012的时候告诉我！我还以为他笨笨的，应该不会写/讲这种东西。应该是希望什么工作顺利，世界和平，爸爸妈妈生体健康之类的话。万万没想到。。也会有我的份。开心到暴！哈哈哈！ 我的心情，根本就是又开心，又想哭，又想笑，又想打他！然后就发觉原来不可以小看他哦！=.=//


当我看到那些话，我突然间眼泪不经意的流下来了。虽然有些错字，可是每一个字，却让我觉得很感动！很幸福。我都明白的很清楚！

我对他说，我只给60分。。其实，那早已经超越100分了！只是我骄傲，不想认输吧了！哈哈哈哈！noob到半死! :D

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亲爱的，

其实你也已经成为了我心里的一部分。*所谓爱，就是当感觉，热情和浪漫统统拿掉之后，你依然珍惜对方*。你说我有点笨，你才笨叻！我不知有几聪明。可是我在想，我笨或许是因为我想被你疼，被你爱，被你呵护。开心吗,我这样讲？？！哈哈！*我又赢了!*yessss!!*

我想，我会一直都把那些话，牢牢的记住，深深的放在心里。

曾经你问我怕不怕, 只想要你在我身边，不論还会有什么考驗，我都不怕，因为有你就有滿足完全， 有你就是幸福 ，相信我们能一起面对考驗。也不管眼前有再多的诱惑，你都会依然爱我。我们都会彼此珍惜。 *yeahh! 厉害!! 自己开心! @__@ 哈哈哈! ** *世上最动听的话不是“我爱你” 或“在一起” 而是在我脆弱的时候， 你说“有我在”! 路,虽然很长,不简单,可是我们一起加油吧！♥ ♥ ♥

Spot the Differences

Hahahhaha! get this from Facebook and ask him to answer all. And end up this is what he said :

Like this and I'll post on your wall. ;)

Nickname : Ni Ni
Do i like your display picture : Yes
Are you ugly : No
First thought about you : Fit
Best feature : Cheerful
Would i ever date you : Yes
Do i love you : Yes
Your name in my phone : Jeannie Lau
Are you important to me : Yes
nice or mean : Nice
Friend or stranger : Friend
Hug or kiss : Kiss
How we met : I forgot
do i want your number : Yes
Do i regret meeting you : No
Do i challenge you to put this as your status : Up to you

My words to you: I love you


*noob* xD
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and this is what I said :

Like this and I'll post on your wall. ;)

Nickname : tut tut / noob zai/ zb zai/ suxs!
Do i like your display picture : erm.. okok la.. xD
Are you ugly : noob face
First thought about you : old man/ uncle
Best feature : shy
Would i ever date you : see my mood
Do i love you : muaks!
Your name in my phone : xin bin
Are you important to me : 50% only hahahaha
Nice or mean : mean and fierce
Friend or stranger: from stranger to friend to ♥
Hug or kiss: both ♥
How we met: i also forgot
Do i want your number: i got it since long time ago
Do i regret meeting you: so far until today 19/12/2011 @ 1:08am... NO
Do i challenge you to put this as your status: so dare jiu put lor xDD

My words to you: miss you and I love you too dear  ♥


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Ishh, see the different? LOL

有事没事

没事，本小姐只是觉得闷，所以就随便写写。嘻嘻！我想说，我觉得自己很幸福，大学也终于毕业了。现在正在进入我人生的另一段。。事业的开始。其实这也不简单，得开始找工，一份适合自己的。 可是又不知要这么找咯。看！不简单吧？压力还漫大的。 可是我却不会放弃！继续加油！因为再也不能回头：）

Angry-ness

ishhh!! a big sighhhh!!! i wanna scream out loud!!!!!!! i feel so so so angry!!!!! arrrr!!!! how come suddenly all being so messy????? what theeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Unexplained-able part 1

If you read this again, I got something to say...I feel the feeling of emo-ness. It has been a while. Seriously, a while, and the feeling coming back again. I don't understand why.. It's unexplained-able. A sudden, I feel nothing. I don't know what should I do next. I don't know what else can I do. :( Just let me be..let me emo for a night. Y.Y Fine.. I admit! I feel miserable, I feel scared, I feel worried, I feel______. I wonder what's in your mind and heart. Let me understand it please, could you? :(

Haihh.. anything la.. it's gonna be fine tomorrow. Hopefully, trust me! :) no worries

But tonight, let me emo emo jiu hao~~~

我想说。。

其实，我想说...我有很多东西想说。很想大大声的说出来...

我想说。。

我可不可以：

-不要懒惰

- 放假

- 回家

- 去旅行

- 吃喝玩乐

- 一直吃都不会胖

- 要很多很多的衣服和包包

- 毕业

- 把成绩考好

- 赚很多很多的钱

- 要瘦下来

- 只要快乐，不要烦恼

- 睡觉

- 不要读书也能考好成绩

我的天啊~！我们人类就是这样。。永远都不自足！ 明明我都有了啊。。可是就觉得不够~ :s

Where's the air??

OMG! i can't breath! I feel no air.. first time in my degree life.. I feel so stress up to the max. I hope for nothing but to finish the bloody hell exam as soon as possible. Oh dear! haihhhh... Y.Y