BALL

Since I was a kid,life of mine is like a ball. Seriously, whenever people feel like playing, they will play it. Whenever there don't, there will always kick me aside. Am I that fun to be played? Oh well, I don't really mind if they feel fun..as long as there are happy I will be happy too.:) *That's how I survive* Be as happy as I can.

Simple problems and issues are actually easy to solved but human is the one who make it complicated. Agree? I always don't mind how cruel others treat me. Because I always thought that, if I treat people well, they will also treat me well. *blink blink eyes*
Time flies very fast and I getting afraid to be a ball. I always try to treat others as nice as I can although I don't like.* But that's life* . But don't know why, they always feel that my care is such annoying until they feel like getting far away from me. Am I that annoying and scary? Or I am nothing or no one to them?

Sometimes, I really don't know what should I do to make them like me. I am trying to be an adult. Think maturely. Haih. No one would understand how I feel. I don't have any other purpose but just to treat peoples around me as good as I can. Am I too over until I cross the boundaries? I wish I won't cross the boundaries but still..I am crossing it. *guessing* I guess it is because I am scared of losing peoples that I care much. I wish to stay by their side to accompany and support them whenever they faced problems or difficulties. But,the outcomes is always negative. It always go somewhere up side down. :(

Being honest, sometimes I care people not because I want them to care me. I did it just because I really did it sincerely. I have nothing much to say if they don't like it.

Life is always like this.The dark side of my world seems like calling for me. That world is so much scary until........*no words can describe*

Haih. Failure in life. I failed in everything. Seriously. I hate being a ball once again.

Owhh~ I am just being too random to post this. Anyways, I hopes that peoples that I care will be happy. If they feel happy and comfortable without my care, I am willing to leave their life. Just tell me and I will do so. :l

I am tired of thinking it. I need rest :)